Sometimes you need a little perspective.
This blog is about beauty because I love beauty. I love the products and the creative agency I can have over my look. It helps me take care of myself, too, and that makes me happy. I love to recommend products I’m trying and chat with readers about skin care and makeup.
However, I do think we sometimes lose sight of what it actually means to feel good and to feel beautiful.
We have to remember to see ourselves as what we are: beautiful human beings worthy of love and goodness, myself included. When I get really upset with myself for not being good enough, I revisit a memory from years ago.
During my sophomore year of college, there was a definite low point as far as my self-care and my health was concerned. My eating schedule was horrific, my sleep schedule was nonexistent, my drinking (everyone does it, Mom!) was getting excessive and I was getting hardly any exercise — or sunlight. As a new group of freshmen came in, all I saw were girls who were better than me: smarter, prettier, skinnier, etc. I wanted to be what I saw in everyone else and I was putting myself under impossible stress to do so. I would stare at myself in the mirror and pick myself apart for hours, usually until I cried, and vowed to “fix” or “cover up” all the “bad” parts of me.
A group of my girlfriends lived in a suite and one of their roommates was a freshman. She looked like everything I thought I could never be: shiny blonde hair, crystal blue eyes and the whitest, straightest teeth I had ever seen on a real human. She also was super smart and on a medical track.
One time, at a house party (because, where else?) we were gathered in the kitchen, and my roommate and I started to tell another girl at the party that she looked like a certain celebrity. We excitedly brought up pictures to compare on our third-generation iPhones. She looked from the screen to us, confused.
“But she’s, like, really pretty,” she said incredulously.
That’s when it hit me: we all think we’re ugly. We are all convinced we are hideous ogres. We compare ourselves to everyone we come in any sort of contact with and lament on what they have and what we don’t. Even this human Barbie had no idea she was a human Barbie.
I’ve come a long way from my 19-year-old self, and I no longer dread looking in the mirror, but I can still fall into those destructive thoughts. We all can — some more dangerously than others. And now we’re coming into the holidays, and our stress is about to move into overdrive. That’s why it’s my responsibility, as somebody who writes about beauty, to ensure the message I’m sending is clear.
Beauty lights me up. I can tailor my look to my mood and I can be whoever and whatever I want to be, expressing myself through my style by using those tools. We have to remember, however, that those things are just that: tools. They do not make us who we are. If you like to explore new product, play with different looks or enhance what you love about yourself, that’s great. If you want to have a cosmetic procedure done because it will make you feel good, please do it. But I would never want anyone to think they NEED to be “more” anything. You are always enough.
Taking care of ourselves is so important, and I spread the gospel of self-care through beauty, skin and haircare, but we have to make sure we’re feeling as good on the inside as we do on the outside.
We all deserve to feel beautiful.
Gia Mazur is an award-winning staff writer and beauty obsessive who joined The Times-Tribune’s Lifestyles department in 2015. She’s a product enthusiast who can’t live without an eyelash curler. A proud Virgo, Charlotte Tilbury Matte Revolution Lipstick in Pillow Talk is her go-to. Contact: gmazur@timesshamrock.com; 570-348-9127; @gmazurTT
